Monday, April 03, 2006

Just as you are...

This has been a reflective time...By "this", I mean the past few months. The one thing that I've been struggling with is self-acceptance. I can give nearly anyone in the world the benefit of the doubt in nearly any situation. I suspend my judgment sometimes when it is the right thing to do. I'm imperfect but overall liberal in what I'll tolerate. Despite these qualities, I cannot forgive, understand and ultimately accept myself for who and what I am. I think I am close. Some days I think I have and nearly find contentment but then an hour passes and the quiet I am experiencing is interrupted by the noise of my negative and convincing thoughts of inadequacy.

The difficult lesson that I am learning is to accept myself, just as I am. If I improve, then I'll have less to accept and more to be happy with. If you understand, then maybe you are on a similar path or maybe you have been here and are not anymore because you love yourself, just as you are. In any event, it is a wonderful thought that we can achieve peace from within and I'm going to stay the course until I've reached that point myself.

Good Night and Good Luck (that has a great ring)