Monday, February 27, 2006

Snow

My knees and elbows are bruised after this weekend. I'm sore and tired. Yesterday I could barely move. Yes, you've guessed right...I've been snowboarding. I'm not a sports person and not a particularly coordinated person so I'm actually surprised that I enjoy snowboarding so much but I do find it exhilarating as well as scary, fun and overall just a cool thing to do. I own my own board which is something I never thought I'd do but by the time I rent 6 times this season I almost have it paid for and then there is next season as well.

So, am I any good? I think I'm not too bad. I can't turn but did make some improvements over the past couple of days. The first time I went out was about a month ago and by the day's end, I could only go down the hill "toe side" meaning I was facing uphill the entire time. That is not exactly safe and not the best way to see the amazing views around Big Bear. After days 2 and 3 of my snowboarding career, I can go down the hill "heel side" as well. I still can't turn, mostly due to fear, which is detrimental but not the end of the world. I'm going again this week and hope to get the turning thing down. Mammoth is next after that so I hope to be well rehearsed and highly skilled by then.

Have a great week!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Time

12 hour work days mean that during the winter you may only see daylight on your way to work and then again the next day when you're on your way to work again. If you run out to lunch or coffee, you'll see it then too. You also may not see friends or family or even someone you live with.

This isn't a complaint or a rant, just an observation of the past few days and something I realized about weeks before that. It is very random but just came to me.

Next week things will return to normal and I'll be bored and working an 8 - 10 hour day but still probably seeing no one. It is funny when work isn't an excuse only laziness is. Why don't I call more often or go out more? I don't know but it is something to work on. If you hear from me unexpectedly, know that right now I'm probably thinking of you. :)

If you're reading this, call up a friend that you haven't talked to in a while. The reason you haven't is probably because it is awkward after having been so long or that you don't have time when really you do because you're surfing the net. I spoke with an old friend lately and it made me realize that I also don't see the people that are right here in my same zip code. Call someone, close in location or far and say hello...you'll both be glad you did.

Talk to you soon,
R.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Oscar noms and bruises...

So, what do the two have to do with each other? Nothing other than they are both on my mind.

I've been told that my blog doesn't contain enough interesting information...about me. Well, that's because it seems that when I share too much, I just get hurt. I end up with bruises, evidence of pain and evidence of injury. Right now, my mind and heart are bruised. You can't see the bruises because they are inside, but sometimes you can tell they're there by the look on my face or my gait or my words. I'll get over it soon. I've said it enough times now to almost believe it. If you didn't guess, I liked someone who, as it turns out, didn't like me, even more than I realized.

Sometimes I think that if I knew even the ugliest truth about why things didn't work out, I'd feel better. Sometimes I think that my imaginings about why are much worse than anything I could hear. Sometimes I think that I just don't need to know. I've been told that it will only take time. I've been told "be careful what you wish for." I think it is dangerous to learn the truth and it's telling would require more bravery than the man possesses. I must be patient with time and let time make these bruises go away.

A couple of weeks ago, my knees, back and ego were bruised after snowboarding. Those bruises have disappeared and I'll be back on a board in another couple of weeks. It may take more time than that to be "back in the game" so to speak, but I guess that will happen eventually too. I've never really been in the game before and hardly got off the bench, but you never know when you'll really get to play.

Sometimes I really hate metaphors, especially when they go to far.

On to the Oscars

Just my quick 2 cents: The nominations came out on Tuesday morning, bright and early, and this was a great year for film. "Brokeback Mountain" led the pack in the major categories and deservedly. The impact of that film, on me, has increased over time and I almost want to go see it again before the awards. Phillip Seymour Hoffman is my number one for Best Actor but it is a tough category. I have my fingers crossed. "Munich" was nominated for Best Picture, I feel as mostly a courtesy to the director. My opinion of it hasn't gotten more favorable and it most likely won't. Tune in on Sunday March 5th.